the more I told myself I'm not disappointed. the more I feel sad. why? I shld be contented actually. this is not the first time. but I've studied pretty hard. or maybe it's just not enough. oh yea, n the saddest thing is that I can only write down everything here.
everyone envy my life. a life where I can get whatever I wanted. but I don't seem to have someone to take to when I needed to! my parents don't get it at all. my eldest bro is busy with other stuffs. hmm I didn't wanna mention abt the other anyways. and yea, that left with me alone. it's not that Im independent. it's just that life gives me no choice but to be. I just don't wanna seem weak in front of others. n I can never be.