yes, all the signs have shown that i should leave. leaving and not coming back? i'm still thinking about that.

no matter how hard i've tried things are not gonna to get better. i have my own way of thinking and they have theirs. and voicing out is not gonna solve anything cos i am not even given a chance to do so.

guilty. yes i am. but why? a family should not be that way. now i can sort of understand why all of them started getting their own lives soon after they got married.

why issit that i should always be the one who is more understanding?? i hate being cling on to money matters when being in the family.

they jus doesnt let me feel secure at all. sometimes i jus felt that they are more of my money debtors rather than family. a so called bank for me to lead my life till i reach 21. or till i graduated and change into another bank. the word family has become so vake to me these few years.


usa trip, dont have to worry abt every sem's fees. yes! i'm like a pampered wealthy girl who doesnt have to worry abt money matters. but they dont understand that all these seems to be much more of a burden to me than joy.

sometimes i jus felt that me staying in this house is wrong,

i'm like making everyone unhappy.

so what is the use of staying in this house.


maybe we can get along well more when we dont meet up that often.

less contact, less argue..